new year's eve

since i was little i waited & waited for my new year's eve kiss.

this year i've been so busy trying to make sure everything is perfect it hadn't even crossed

my mind.

i love that last night as we talked about our new years eve fun,

"he" was the one to remind me i'd be "his" new year's kiss.

it's the little things that keep me falling in love all over again.

hope you have a wonderful new year's eve

xo

merry christmas, from us

a much more formal post to come of the christmas festivities. hope you & yours had yourself a very merry little christmas.

xo

life

now i realize i have sucked as of late...been busy trying to live a little. since then i've completed my first 1/2 marathon {meaning there will be more to come} in 2hrs & 18 minutes. honestly one of the hardest things i have ever done.

made forb ride a horse...he is more terrified of them then i am.

attempted to eat about 5 lbs of food...the burger was literally the size of my faceeee. never again.

and just hanging out :)

duck hunting practice

the group.
we went shooting so i could practice for the ducks. all i have to say is watch out duckies because you are goin down. and man am i one lucky girl...to be in love with a boy who will be able to provide dinner no matter what ha ha, we happened across a wild chicken...so of course forb shot it. we had every intention of plucking & cooking the poor little thing but failed to realize that we should probably let the blood drain before it ruined all the meat...but now we know for next time :) i focused really hard because forrest said i had to hit the clay pigeons or he wouldn't take me hunting...& i really want to go hunting so it took all my focus to shoot!

& us.

sorry we've been busy...

sneaking drinks into usana.

singing our hearts out at the brad paisley concert.

making things out of pull 'n peels. cheering on real salt lake.

but mostly just falling in love.

random cuteness

the other night forrest & i went to dinner at cpk {california pizza kitchen} we were sitting there talking, waiting for our food & forrest was talking about his bills. this is what he said " then i'll only have my cell phone, gas, & you as bills." i couldn't contain my excitement, i really like the kid. who would have thought being called a bill could be so romantical?

you may not believe this

so you may not believe that on monday i called 104.3 the cowboy & quali-flyed for a drawing for a trip to see george & reba in nashville on september 11th. {also received a cd from the stash}
if you don't believe that you especially will not believe that the very next day i called 101.5 the eagle because i was determined to win brad paisley tickets. i took a break @ work at 12:10 so i could go out to my car & listen for the brad paisley song & on my last attempt to call in it rang & rang, i was about to hang up because i figured they already had the winner & all of a sudden he answers & said i was caller 10 & asked if i wanted a pair of brad paisley tickets i was freakinggg out & practically yelled "more than you know!!!"!! you serioulsy would have thought i won the lottery. so if my luck continues on friday morning i'll hear my name on 104.3 ksop@ 7:15 am which means i would win the fly away to nashville. i really think i'd pass out.

Give and Get is Here!

Give and Get is Here!: "Enjoy 30% off from August 26-29 at Gap, Banana Republic and Old Navy and we'll donate 5% of what you spend to a non-profit."

repeat

"somebody's gotta scratch your back, the places you can't reach.
say something that'll make you laugh when that's exactly what you need.
and i hope that's me, i hope that's me.
somebody's gonna get dressed up, take you out for valentines.
getting lots of jealous looks thinkin' that's one lucky guy.
and i hope that's me, i hope that's me.
and you keep on wondering who is gonna love you like i already do, and i keep wondering when you'll see, that eventually.
somebody's gotta throw on a coat, when your fever hits a hundred and two.
go down & pick your prescription up, come home & fix you soup.
and i hope that's me, i hope that's me.
somebody's gonna buy a ring, somebody's gonna make you cry.
somebody's gonna lift that veil, and get to look into your eyes.
and i hope that's me, i hope that's me.
cause you keep on wondering who is gonna love you like i already do, and i keep wondering when you'll see, maybe eventually.
old man on a front porch swing, looking back on his long life.
glass of iced tea in his hand, other arm around his wife.
and i hope that's you, i hope that's me.
i hope that's you, i hope that's me.
i hope that's you, i hope that's me.
i hope that's you, i hope that's me.
i hope that's me."

by repeat i mean that i have literally listened to this song at least 1oo times today.
thanks bradley for the amazing song. {brad paisley}

apology

sorry for the immensely depressing blog post.
things are still rough around my neck of the woods & i miss my best friend a little more each day but i know in the end things will play out how they are meant to.
until that happens i have decided to focus a little bit more on the one thing i do have control over & that is me. i'm gonna rededicate myself to the gospel. get the career i want & back into photography. start working out again & learning more about patience. i thought i had acquired patience...but learned i'm far from mastering that little virtue. so here is to learning more about handling lifes twists & turns & faith & patience.
on an exciting note i'm starting to take pictures again...my favorite from kami & robbie's engagements. they get married september 18th couldn't be more excited for them! <3

miss you

dear best friend,
the last 48 hours have been eventful, but i feel numb to it all, & i'm hoping this will somehow reach you.
i've been dying to tell you about the bomb threat @ work & how they didn't even inform us or evacuate us.
or how the little midget lady tried to peek out my window to see why cops were everywhere & it took her 3.4 minutes to realize that she was too short to see over the suburban i had to bite my lip from laughing out loud & asking her if she wanted a boost.
or how the spreadsheet from you know where came back today & all i could do was laugh because i wanted to cry.
or how i wanted to text you: "niu".
or how i ran into my 9th grade seminary teacher & felt awful i couldn't remember his name & he remembered me.
or show you the hilarious youtube video megan showed me so we could make it a new inside joke.
or how my scriptures that have been lost for months randomly showed up in the lost & found.
or how i'm taking engagement pictures for one of my good friends who is getting married in 6 weeks & i'm actually pretty nervous about it, but in a good way.
or how i tried to find the big dipper tonight so i could tell you i found it first & hoped you were trying to find it too.
or how i'm finally pursuing the career i want & i'm gonna at least fake it big until i make it big no matter how long it takes.
or how i still can't make myself list my car on ksl & how i'd secretly hope you would tell me not to sell it again or that i needed to sell it & buy a truck so i would be safe.

but the truth is, maybe i'd just cry & tell you that getting out of bed in the morning is the hardest. because i still know today i won't see you but i still hope beyond anything else the next time i look at my phone the text will be from 'forrester'or i'll drive home & see your red truck parked out front or how i keep faking smiles because i know one day it will feel normal again. and how i miss you being the last person i talk to at night & the first person in the morning. & maybe i'd want you to lie & say this big hole in my heart will eventually get smaller and i'll remember how to talk to people without feeling awkward. but tonight i know i'm stuck talking to myself.
i miss you.
sincerely,
your bem

{bliss}

n.
perfect happiness: perfect untroubled happiness.


sometimes that's the perfect way to explain how he makes me feel.

camping

we went camping up @ forest lake this weekend {af canyon past tibble fork}
it is quite an excursion to get there, some serious off roading. but it was sooo fun & really beautiful!

first we set up camp & my wonderful boyfriend cooked dinner which consisted of italian sausages with imported cheese in the middle...fortunately camping is totally his thing so he does everything...the only time it isn't great is when i have to eat what i'm given which i guess is good for me :)

then we had a campfire, sat around & talked about twilight of all things ha. & we danced to what i call our song "than" by brad paisley. so cuteee he is always doing sweet little things that make me smile!

in the morning we did some more off roading & hanging out. it was a perfect camping trip! {minus the fact that i had to pee @ 3 in the am, that was fun}

overall conclusion: camping is fun once again!

broken

no time to blog simply updating at the bf's house.
i am still alive.
internet is not.
please keep having summer fun & i'll hopefully be back soon with our list of things to accomplish this summer!
xox
if you have any have to's i'd love some help!

22

turned 22. had an awesome day. lots of love from everyone, i have such amazing friends & family! the boy tricked me in order to surprise me, & i must say even though it was a mean trick i loved it. i think he loved it more than me though.
here is the gift wrapped & waiting for me to open it...wal-mart bag classy {not only was it wrapped in a wal-mart bag, it was 5 bags, newspaper ad & another wal-mart bag ha ha}

this is the best picture because at this point i thought he really had gotten me a piggy bank & he is stoked because i was so disappointed.

come to find out i had a coupon for dinner & tim mcgraw tickets on july 30th waiting inside the piggy bank for me!!! {as a clue the card said, remember its whats inside that really matters} just what i wanted!!!!

mint brownies :) then we went to the pg rodeo so fun but freezingggg!!
it really was the best birthday i can remember, 22 isn't so bad yet.

silly

"if you lived to be 100 i would want to live to be 100 minus 1 day so i'd never have to live without you!" -winnie the pooh

i thought that was so sweet so i texted it to forrest thinking he'd for sure have something cheesy to say to me...he said "so you'd make me live a day without you...kind of selfish." ha he is perfect at killing the moment but makes me giggle everytime :)

weeks have been flying by and weekends have been going even faster! can you believe forrest and i have been dating 9 weeks? i can't! {although i'll be honest, most times i can't remember when i didn't date him...}
a few weekends ago we went down to eureka where we ate lunch and just hung around and took pictures of all the old buildings! i can't believe i found someone who takes more pictures than i do...<3

we even stopped at an antique shop where he bought me our first cookie cutter, so adorable :)

the next weekend i was sick ALL weekend and he worked ALL weekend...speaking of work i detest diamond rental...they steal my boyfriend and occupy wayyyy too much of his time. and when he isn't at work he is exhausted from his 14 hr day. blehhh.
this weekend we went on a camping excursion with the most redneck people i have ever associated with they were sooo nice. not gonna lie it was pretty awesome! {connie-the mom said this to me "i've never been out of the country, wait i take that back when i was 6 or 7 i went to disneyland and san diego zoo for a day. but i'd really like to go to alaska or canada someday." i mean i totally understand why she got confused about disneyland...there are so many nationalites there it has to be hard to remember you are still in America. ha i can't stop laughing about that}
first we found moose tracks...they were HUGE!! freaked me out!

next my darling boyfriend shot a poor little chipmunk with his bow...i will admit it was a great shot but the poor little guy probably had a family and friends, to that forrest said you don't know that he could have been a thief/outlaw stealing everyone's food and murdering. ha i love him.

and finally i made him this message. can you figure it out?

{eye love ewe aka 'i love you'}
tonight i'm home in my bed missing snuggling by the fire...and when i thought he didn't even miss me he said "just around the fire..i miss you" he might like me too?

l.o.v.e.

do you remember the last time you liked someone so much that after pretty much 7 straight weeks of being together everyday you still want to spend all your free time with them...and try and find more time to be together.
and then after an amazing saturday when you have been together over 10 hours and you get home expecting to have at least 2 more hours to spend together but he is exhausted and leaves you home alone you get upset that you can't spend the rest of the night together...i'm not sure what is going on but forrest dear, i think i have an idea why i'm so crazy about being with you as long as possible. i've pretty much all together entirely fallen for you.
i miss you and its only been 1 hour since you left....
xox
your better half

and next time you say would it be cliche to ask you to marry me right now, please don't do it while i'm holding a glass dish...and a ring would be nice, just sayin

to mom

i love you.
happy mom's day {i know how much you hate the word mother}
thanks for all you do/have done.
i love you mucho!
xoxox
rache

saturday

spent the day with his family here at the draper temple.

where justin, jessica, and jackson got sealed for time and all eternity.

{isn't he the cutest?}

and what would the day be without our own little photoshoot?


personal fave

can't wait for my turn inside :)
xo

i kinda like him

"you look cute...i just passed you :)"

what better way to end my work day than driving home and looking down to see that text message from the boy. i just adore him. he makes me feel like the cutest girl in the world, even in my sweat pants.



ps his name is forrest :)

nick sr pics

it is late and i'm exhausted...but i just edited some pictures nick and i took on monday and remembered why i love what i majored in...and that i need to make it a much more frequent activity.
also i cannot believe my brother is graduating hs this month. sure love him congratulations nicky b!

xo

wedding....not ours

best part of being stuck at a wedding for what feels like forever is....the boy saying lets pretend that we are cutting the cake and cracking up then proceeding to talk about possible future scenarios involving cupcakes and weddings and shoving cake on each other

photo shoot and wearing converse with my dress

having an excuse to dress up for the boy

and just being with the cute kid!

a perfect saturday

wake up at 9:00 instead of 7:00 like a week day.
clean the bathroom and dejunk room.
get ready for the day.
surprise forrest at his house and help him clean the trailer.
play with nephews and other family members of his.
go fishing and catch first fish!
go home and continue to play with his nephews.
run home to change into bonfire appropriate attire.
eat dinner with his family.
do dishes/prep peach cobbler.
snuggle by the fire.
eat peach cobbler.
kiss goodnight.

thursday afternoon

this afternoon i got a text "do you have anything planned from 4-7?" i said "yes i'm planning on being terribly busy with you :)" "k good because i have special plans"
special plans consisted of 4 wheeling up the mountain to his favorite place to think and talking....it was really fantastic and the warm weather was splendid. can't wait for summer with this boy!