crush

some people might call what i did crazy...some might call it brave and others might say it was plain stupid (to those who think it was stupid please watch 'he's just not that into you' i'd much rather make a fool of myself by putting myself out there then live a sad and lonely life, because through all the heartache and emotional roller coaster, at least i know i am alive and getting closer to finding 'him' every time i fall in love). i just call it being me...awkward...and forward...sometimes impatient...and totally quirky...

on sunday i told this boy i love(i use that term very very loosely) that i have a little baby crush on him. it was hard to confess that, try it sometime, but i couldn't stand the thought of regretting never having said anything to him. we had a good talk and i am glad i told him...i am not sure what will happen, we are both leaving for the summer and he is kind of dating someone. but regardless he has taught me a lot about what i want and to never settle. i love and greatly cherish our friendship, secretly hoping he will realize we are mfeo.

but until than i'll move on and start the next adventure of my life...new york city will you be my summer fling?

because today i graduated

i have been on a blogging stall, because lately i have felt weird.
today i graduated and until i can figure out what i want to say and formulate it better i just wanted to say a little of what is on my mind. graduating feels weird because for the last 17 years school has consumed my life, starting with preschool and continuing through college, i love school and learning. i don't want to stop. so now i take it into my own hands. i have goals that i can now devote my full attention to and some exciting dreams that i will work my hardest to make reality (future plans to come soon.) so while i work on setting goals and creating my future please enjoy the journey with me and prepare for a bright future. as president Monson said "glance backward, reach outward, and press forward." so prepare yourself world i am here and not giving up on my dreams.

thoughts on school:
i will miss going to school, playing with friends there and making new friends.
being stressed out, having assignments, financial aid, learning, class, teachers, field trips, and many other things.

school was a place i learned how to learn, i learned how to teach, i learned how to make friends, i learned how to delegate, i learned how to take responsibility, i learned who i am and how to not be scared of that.

for now i might not miss going to class, finals, overwhelming assignments, 18 credits, some professors, the gt bathroom, paying a billion dollars for school supplies, missing out on things because i needed to get homework done...but come mid fall i know i am going to miss her (uvu campus).

so to all who helped me on my way i very greatly appreciate your support and love you dearly. (especially my dad who i called almost everyday after class these last 2 semesters ready to give up, he gave me strength to carry on. also my mom for her support, and close friends, besty, you know who you are)
xoxo

website

i created a website for my sr studio class for honors credit. right now it is a little silly but it gets the job done...so until i have more time and energy to devote to her she will be pretty humble!

www.cheakysquarephotos.com


p.s. name comes from.... one day at work i had an extremely squeaky chair, and i tend to mix my words up a lot so i turned to a friend and said "wow i have such a cheaky square!" we both started laughing since than i have thought that would be a fun original name and i am madly in love with the square shape. random tid bit for the day!

xoxo

jared

i love having friends that are so willing to do their thing and be photographed all the time! it helps me learn and practice so much!

(jared even played my favorite john mayer :)

cowboy

recent shoot with spence for illustration.
concept: reflecting on the meaning of the old west and what it meant to live here, how things were simple and more about surving day to day...getting by with basic needs rather than everything we want.

kind of creepy.

i am kind of really in love with this old abandoned place i found in murray.
the green light is slightly awesome/creepy.
i loved it. i can't wait to go back and shoot some fashion shots.

no doubt about it

billys has the best red velvet cupcake yet.
and best part of ny was seeing this besty friend. (shout out to shanna you will be with us next time :)

nyc

spring break 2009.
new york city, new york.
more pics and details to come.

fun shoot

spent the evening with these 2 fine gentle men.
so fun.
so cute.
can't wait to do it again.
ps ez burger is pretty good
and i learned a new knock-knock joke...

spence predicting the economic forecast...raining money

spencer portrait, i like that he is biting his lip because i do that a lot.

jared, isn't he a cutie?

ralphie

dear ralphie.
i would consider us to be friends.
and recently i have aqcuired something, i believe it is called a crush, for you.
because of said 'crush' i wouldn't mind us becoming better friends.
i really do think you are so great
i hope you aren't in love with another girl.
and i promise i will be really nice to you and make you delicious cookies.
so please at least sleep on it?
xoxo
rachel nicole bradshaw

ps i really am a good cuddle buddy...